December 2009
“I’ve noticed, that you’ve been noticing me, so I’m giving you...”
– Beautifully Broken
ego.
I am egoistic, thanks to my sister, she’s made me realise how ego I am, honestly it’s very hard for me to open up to people, so I guess I build a wall, and I lock myself in, I’m stubborn, and I make the worse choices. I regret them later, honestly, I’m too open minded, I reason with myself too much, and for that, people see me differently. I need help to open up, I need to...
wow.
Would I be called selfish, If I said, I wanted you and you only, all for myself?
I want to tell you how I feel, not for you, but just generally, Everyday.
I don’t need advice, I just need a good listening ear.
heh.
What am I supposed to do, am I supposed to feel happy?
Should I just ignore, I cried on the spot, I cried…for you.
I’m hopeless.
Bewildered.
I have this overwhelming feeling. I can’t pour my feelings out, cause I’m hesitant, so there’s this build up of emotion inside. It’s sunny today, and I always end up gazing outside the window. I feel like I’m trapped, there’s this lack of freedom. But there’s this little spark of happiness to know that I’m safe, and soon i shan’t be alone....
“You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one, I hope someday...”
– John Lennon
“Why love if losing hurts so much? We love to know that we are not alone.”
– C.S. Lewis
There’s something holding back the tears, I cant release it all. The amount of emotion inside building up slowly. I can feel the wall getting higher, and now I cant climb over it…like I always did.
Now I need you, I need your help, please.
Pretty face with an ugly heart.
